[ life:revisited 2010 + 1 ]

Drink: 2 bottles of whiskey (so far)
Soundtrack: Bobby McFerrin - Dont Worry, Be Happy
Weapon of Choice: Codeine and Percoset

Holy shit. TIME OF MY LIFE so far. First night I show, I get some new gauntlets, second night, new boots, mace, and some other cool shit. All of us bois got hammered, and got a chance to chill for a bit, and hang the fuck out. It was awesome. So what if I wore the same clothes to my Dad's Thanksgiving that I got trashed in, still smelled like whisky, and looked like hell. Well, my hands are shaking because of withdrawal, time to hit the sack. More to come.

Drink: Mello Yello.
Soundtrack: Cake - I Will Survive.
Weapon of Choice - Pink Flamingo.

Well, for those of you that know me, you know that from roughly Thursday night - Sunday Morning of this week, I will be with my fellow compatriots, indulging ourselves in massive amounts of WoW gaming. It shall be glorious. I haven't had a vacation in a very long time, and this is going to be it for me, because I will get to relax, get hammered, and play some serious video games.

A lot of people criticize my so-called "addiction" to video games. Those people are simple minded amoebas, but they are also my friends, and my significant other (man I am gonna get slapped for this), so I guess an explanation of why I enjoy these games so much is in order.

Some people knit. Some people build models. Some people download movies. Some people make soy candles. Some people snort coke. I do none of these things (well maybe some), but I do play World of Warcraft. This game allows me to go crush things with a variety of weapons and spells, and explore a HUGE, richly animated and thought out world. I also can play with my friends in a group, and that is super fun. No you may ask yourself "SELF! Why would people be mad at good ole darkstar for this?" I'll tell ya my little chitlin. Cuz when I play, it takes a while to get most things done. A LONG while. Like long enough for me to play for days straight if I wanted to. This is working as intended from Blizzard. There are people who can play 1 time a week, 1 time a day, and there are those people who play CONSTANTLY. Now I used to be BAD with another game (FFonline eeeek), but I have really cut back, now I play only with some buddies rarely, and maybe for a few hours one night, every 1-2 weeks. A drop in the bucket right? WRONG! (according to others :( ) So. Here is my solution. I am going to the House of Paign this weekend, and Lolyna, Dmitri, the FBI crew and I are going to raid until the wheels fall off and stomp some serious a$$. ITS TIME FOR TEH MUTHA FSKING PERCULATOR!!!!! LEEEEEROOOOYYYYYY.....I wont even dignify that with a response. Needless to say, Tsaroth, Loly, Dmitri, and another poor soul are going to be drunk, rowdy, and funny as hell.

..ahem, ahem, I digress. So if you want to see my progress (more likely my downward spiral), check this blog regularly this weekend. I am bound to entertain.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow.

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad.
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very

Mad World....
Mad World....

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me.

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad.
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very

Mad World....
Mad World.........

Drink: Earl Grey, hot, dash of nutmeg
Soundtrack: Crossfade - Colors
Weapon of Choice: Thrash Blade with +4 weapon damage. wtfpwnzored.

Man I am over-extended. I took on some freelance work for another local company, and that means supporting the personal computers of the employees as well as their work computers. Its nice supplemental income (better than selling meth, I guess), but there is always something wrong. I have to do research in order to stop the massive amounts of spam they get in their email, and their email is provided by Verizon. Which, many of you know, is just about as stimulating and productive and wrapping your privates around a trailer hitch. I get to call them tomorrow morning to see if they can do any more blocking then they already are, which I am sure will end in fire. Mainly me giving them some fire and brimstone for their time.

So, I started the late shift at my main IT support job, 10:15 - 7pm. I'm not so sure about how it will go, cuz I am used to earlier mornings, but it still pays the bills, so no real complaints here. Been doing a lot of thinking of moving to Chicago. Actually, I know I am moving there with Amanda, I am just contemplating the logistics of the move, getting another job, and all the fun thoughts associated with moving to the city. It will be fun, especially getting a cool place downtown, but it will be stressful and costly as well.

Combine anxious thoughts, over-caffienation, stupid people, scotch on the weekend, and an already crazy individual, and you get me.

To quote ol' Bilbo, I feel like butter spread over too much bread. Seems like there is always something I have to do, and everything is just very complicated. I'm not sad, or depressed, just not really having much time for personal reflection or deep thought. Depriving someone who does that a lot is pretty strange. Kinda like going thru a fog for a week, and not really even noticing time passing. I use deep thoughts, meditation, and philosophic conversation as bookmarks in my life. Meaning, these dialogues punctuate my life, making life feel longer. Well that's about all I have time for. Good luck and good night.

Drink: Kona/ Columbian coffee blend :)
Soundtrack: Blue Oyster Cult - Don't Fear the Reaper (MORE COWBELL!)
Weapon of choice: My gnarled, bare hands.

Has anyone ever been to North Dakota? Anyone? Has anyone actually had to go there and do something of importance or fun, such as work, or vacation? I ask this because I want to know something about the population and society there. My question is: ARE THEY ALL UTTERLY RETARDED?

I have fielded almost 1000 calls since my employment with a large company 3 months ago. I deal with user problems, computer equipment, software, and network connections troubleshooting and escalation. The only people I have had problems with are in frigging North Dakota, in Grand Forks, which to me seems like the middle of frigging nowhere. It looks like 2 major roads are there, and then maybe a gas station, and hopefully a hospital where most of the cities inhabitants are housed. We can't have these people running around, otherwise it would be like the Dawn of the Dead. No, actually it would be like Night of the Living Dead, those zombies are not fast, and just kinda of mill around making moaning noises. Which, subsequently, are easier to understand and interpret, compared to the accent that is used there (Think of Bobby's mom, from the old cartoon Bobby's World).

Now, I could deal with stupidity, accents, and zombies. I do that all the time. Hell, I do that on one foot while brushing my teeth in the morning. But, to those of you who know me, you know I cannot stand the combination of stupidity......and arrogance/condescending attitudes. It makes me want to take a flamethrower to the house of who actually thinks that this type of attitude helps the situation. This situation is infuriating to the point of Tazmanian devil like actions. But it seems that all of the people from the hamlet of Grand Forks have this condition. So my question again is: "W.T.F?"

Anyone who has information to the contrary, or who would like to sign my petition to let North Dakota secede from the United States, to form its own country of Stupidia, give me some comments. If you are from North Dakota, and I have offended you, I just don't give a shit.

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Yeah its a little late in the day for a post, but hey, it's still a free country for at least the next 3 hrs.

Oh, before I forget, if you have no idea what this picture means check this out.

All of you who know what this means, see above.

Yeah the old all your base funnies, man I remember when that shite was freshies. That was quite possibly one of the funnier things I have seen in my life. Almost had Dane Cook tix, but the ISU students, apparently now they know who he is, sold out Braden Auditorium. Little bastards. They will probably just sit there and scream "DO THE PICKLE JOKE!!! NO! NO! DO THE ALIEN JOKE!!" sigh.

I guess my current mood would be frustrated. Oh well, what else is new, right? :)

I missed BlizzCon this past weekend. I saw what went on there, and it totally kicked a$$, but the one thing I needed to go, I didn't have, and that is $$. Dig the hole deeper into my bank account.

Man I just wanted a reason to post this pic, and the link, so I'll shut up now. L8r.
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Drink: Tylenol Severe Cold and Flu sludge (Not bad, actually)
Soundtrack: Cold Play - A Message
Weapon of Choice: A tie btw a large inflatable horse costume, and chocolate frosted donettes.

Well. I have been sick as hell the past few days, and I think the worst may be over, but who knows. Went to a Halloween party that was pretty swank this past weekend. Friend of mine spent 500 simoleans on decorations, just to have his nutty girlfriend get schnockered wayyyy to early, so he had to guard her all night ( Not like that has ever happened to me :) ). I did get to see my good friend dress up like the burger king King. He was creepin people out all night, pulling little fake hamburgers out to give them, all while saying nothing. Super creepy.

Sox won the series. Go us.

I have been wrestling with a weird emotion as of late - "Non - enthusiasm". You ever just stop enjoying what you normally love to do? You go to work/school/whatever and then you come home and instead of playing video games/making a candle/painting/whatever you just sit in front of the tube, and zone out. Normally those hobbies would have kept you busy for at least a few hours, right? Its super weird, and super shitty. I am one of those people who likes to feel like they are learning something, or doing something that improves themselves intellectually, physically (seldomly this much less :( ), and emotionally at almost all times. Whether it is reading a book on some form of tech, a fantasy novel, going for a walk, or watching CSI, all of those things make you feel physically, emotionally, and intellectually good, and you might learn somethin. Not lately. I just don't have any emotional drive to do the things I like. This breeds the emotion of "Non-enthusiasm". You look at tv or movies you would normally get excited over and just go "Meh". Anyone know a quick route out of this territory? Drugs? Therapy? A slightly funny and tragic love story that makes you feel better about your life? Who knows. I just feel like saying "Screw today, bed is more fun for me".

Well I am going to sit at my desk now, eat my frosted donettes, and wait for people to call in with more bard ballads of their stupidity. Go me.

Drink: h20 (thats water, for you people)
Soundtrack: CCR - Born on the Bayou
Weapon of Choice: A full tang, battle ready katana from Valiant Armories

The internet has given us many advances in our society. Through the pervasiveness of computer networks, we have gained the ability to share files and information over amazing distances, talk to our friends and family while in other countries, and use its boundless stores of information to write papers for school, learn to cook, and even get our degrees online.

Then we come to internet slang.

Yes the internet has a language, this language was born in chat rooms, and in multiplayer online games, in order to get what you want to say across in the least amount of time, and with the least amount of characters typed. I use internet slang or what we call "leetspeak" almost everyday. Phrases like "PEBKAC" and "RTFM" I use everyday, mainly because I support a network of people who have no business dressing themselves, yet they still work here. Other phrases, like "O RLY?" and "w4llh4x0r!" are used mainly in retort, to defend yourself against embarrassment, or to show anger at another's actions. "WTF!" and "STFU" are used cryptically in my chat area in WoW to berate morons that do things to get me killed. And the list goes on. Why am I writing about this? Good question.

Does the internet have the possibility of being its own entity? Maybe even its own country? You may laugh, and say, "we created the machines that it runs on, so no way!" Other contractors from other countries build buildings that people use for office, industrial, and residential spaces all over the world, and they build and sell buildings just like we build and sell servers on the internet, so that doesn't really apply, actually, but it sets the stage sort of. Maybe I am wrong though. Further thinking makes me feel like the internet is the last Wild West the world has now. Anonymity, crime, sex, and other illegalities abound this place, and people with proverbial "gold fever" set up shop as spam producers, online dating services and poker games, online gaming, and all the other social and business endeavors people think of to use the internet to make $$$.

And in my opinion, most of those endeavors serve little or no purpose to me, other than to fuel my rage against other stupid people. If ya wanna play poker, play with friends, if ya wanna date, do to a frigging bar, if ya wanna play games......play WoW. :) Whoops.

I for one use the internet for what is best for me. A tool, to find information that makes me smarter, and makes me laugh. It also enables me to watch movies, play World of Warcraft (which is slowly turning into the crack-cocaine of internet users) and any other random task that I can use its wealth of data for. So eventually our government (yeah, the one ran by complete and total inbred morons) will create sanctions and laws for internet usage, ban certain sites, and crack down on 14 yr old music and movie downloaders. And then we will have lost the only place that people can practice all of their vices and sins in a place that can not create any harm, save harm to the people who are disgusted by some aspects of that vice. Now, stuff like kiddie porn and chat room predators should all be led into a room and gassed, but I am talking about the 45 yr old happily married guy that occasionally jerks it to his selected porn star online, the 14 yr old who almost wets himself watching a monkey fling poo at people as a video, and people like me who rant and rave about what they think is wrong with the world on their blog. There has been a lot of talk about blogs, that are political in nature, being regulated by political parties and the government. As soon as that starts, all the people like me who think Bush is a jackass and should never even ran for office will be sanctioned and most likely fined for their first amendment beliefs that our president is a tool, and our government is totally out of control. .....whew, how did l33tsp34k end up a politically charged rant? Ah well, its Tuesday, I feel like shit, and its always fun to type about how I don't trust the gov't Yup, I hear the black helicopters coming for me right now.

This was kind of a long one today. I'm not really in an anti-political mood, I just feel like shit, and I felt like dumping off some steam. Well thats it.